I really do not know what His will is for me specifically other than to try to understand Him. I struggle daily with a lack of motivation and purpose after realizing that this world cannot fulfill me. I look around and see the things that motivate most people and I have lost that and feel like I am in limbo at the moment. I feel like everything I have done so far in my life is a waste and I have nothing to offer anyone in the future that really matters. Everything that used to drive me has gone bad and I have nothing left but a day to day existence of going through the motions.