Dear person, God is always with you and loving you, and ALSO the rest of the Christian people. It doesn't matter we don't really know each other, we are brothers and sisters. I have gone through pain myself, but I am glad I am still here... If you get the point. When things are really bad, try not to be alone. Get help. If there is nobody else, talk to God. Talk LOTS to God! He is you Creator, he loves you and will take responsability of His creation... I wish you ALL BLESSINGS POSSIBLE from above, all healing love and friendship there is in life. Hang on, don't give up please! I am convinced, ABSOLUTELY SURE life has something better waiting for you, if you give life a chance. Please give life a chance! Lots of Christian love and care, my unknown friend!