I want to be strong from my break up

by Rihana
(Ethiopia)

I know this man one year and half ago, we were together in person only for five days. he lives in another country. I have been waiting for him to come to me for 16 months. during this time, he never trusted me, he is rich so, he thinks I am with him for advantage not for love. He told me he will do things for me even I never asked him but he was the one tells me that I want money from him. but i swear to God, I was only want him for love. I was preparing the garden of his house but after they change the key of the house and he abonden me. I was looking a house to rent so, he thinks together with his brother I want to stay in his house, but I never think of it. So, they change the key of the house and they did so many bad thinks on me emotionally. The funny thing is that even if he did that to me, I waited him and i loved him,. He told me everytime, to write him email even if i am upset. SO, i was writing to him what I felt about him and his bad brother. but lastely he used that the things I wrote by telling me u write to me so many bad things.

Anyway, what hurts me now is after all the time I have been waiting for him after all what he did to me, he came back in the country without telling me and he called me and tell me that he is here for business not for me. and he refuse to take me to his house, and he came to my apartment and he told me that I am only good in bed nothing else. so, if i need him again i have to start from scratch, because i was bad to him. he used to call me "my life" but now he is calling me by my name and when i asked him he said to me, that is my name. and he was so rude to me. Imagine after all my suffering emotionally, and after all i waited him, he betray me, but even now, i cannot get him out of my mind. pLEASE PLEASE HELP ME WITH PRAYER TO FORGET HIM AND TO MAKE HIM REALIZE HIS FAULT. his brother is the one who make him to be like this because he want to use him for money. Please HELP ME. i AM HOPELESS AND I EVEN THINK OF COMMITING SUICIDE SOMETIMES, i GIVE UP LIFE. PLEASE HELP ME I BEG U, PLEASE, PRAY FOR ME TO PASS THROUGH FROM THIS DISTRUCTION. pLEASE, THANK U