I do not want to live like that, restore me please
by D.
(MI)
I am again requesting for Carl to be delivered set free from alcohol and even that he will get counseling perhaps for a long,long time,and he might need a conversion, About 2 days ago he announced that he was thinking of going to an alcohol treatment center, I got him a list but then he said wait til Monday, well last night he went out and bought 3 very large bottles of beer then he went back for prob 2 more and drank it all fast, within a few hours he was starting to get verbally mean and verbally abusive to me, I can't believe the things he tells me because now I have 2 different versions of his past, he has so much unresolved baggage from his past and it is affecting his hard , disrespectful,oppressive and even when he is drunk he threatens & pretends he has all the answers and tries to intimidate me.he acts annoyed much of time and is constantly telling me to get out of the way.there is almost no affection as used to be in out relationship, He has not had employment for much longer than 1-2 weeks for about 3 years.I do not drink and HATE alcohol,If our relationship is to be,which I can barely comprehend that possibility,which it needs a total overhaul ,restoration, he did like me once,Please pray for me that somehow God gets him OUT of my apt even if it is he checks into alcohol treatment, and God brings me help: like a few trucks and sizeable muscles to get my belongings out of that apt and into a shed:so I move out when he is not around,he will act like nothing happened when he sobers up,much of the time he has not stayed sober too long,Please find me a place Jesus,even less than in the price range I have been looking,restore me and my youngest have mercy upon us,I ask for HELP with my vision and the provision necessary ,If it is Your will help me to find parttime employment up there,Lord I want to start at 53 enjoying my children and enjoying life please restore me.